memento mori.

you know, sometimes i just cannot understand why people feel the need to talk about other people. especially people that haven't ever done anything to them. i mean, does it give them some sort of good, 'ha, yeah, that's right, i outdid you, unsuspecting person' feeling? does it really feel all that great to out-do someone? and if it does, why, might i ask, is it necessary to take it one step further and talk about them behind their backs? to defile them, without them even knowing? without even giving them a chance to defend themselves? and then, to top it all, say it's because of them that they're talking about them like this. that it's something they supposedly did that's causing a person to go and gossip, spread stories and lie to other people about them. and then, worst of all, they go and publicly insult your intelligence. i don't know about you people, but someone calling me an idiot is pretty much the last straw. i am so sick of this stupid, childish crap. why is it so necessary? again, do people take pleasure in talking about someone else? is it supposed to somehow distract them and others away from their own faults? but how is that helping? trying to make yourself feel better about your insecurities by spreading stories about, and this is the clincher, someone who you claim is your friend. this is it for me. i'm done. i'm through taking crap from you people when all i've ever done is try to help and be there for you. but i guess that that isn't what you wanted? no. i guess you just have this issue where the minute that a situation starts to go well, you have to ruin it, just so that you can have a reason to tell people you're miserable. well then i hope you're okay losing every single one of your friends, one by one, because trust me, when you start doing this to them, they'll realize very quickly just what's going on, and then i hope that they'll be smart enough to get out before this happens.
i can't believe you sank this low. but hey, you just proved it's possible.